Faith Journey

I was being called Guni Ter (milk = Guni (teochew) pig because my sister said I am very dirty, and lazy like a pig. My favourite pet was a chicken, one day I spotted at the wet market at Boon Lay Market. My mother refused to buy for me, but later on, she saw that I was so sad and always sulking, she bought one for me. That is my Primary School, Yung An (Yung 永 = forever , An 安 = safe ), little did I know that Yung An Primary School means forever peace, and the school logo, is a blue fish, but seems like a kite.

Staying consciously 'awake', I opened my eyes with fright when Richard sat up suddenly at 6am. I asked him, "What's wrong?" He did not answer immediately, still drowsy. He hold on to his left leg, "Cramp" he said. I 'massage' for him (I don't know massage, but merely squeeze here and there). Then he laid back. I was worried for him. I thought I wanted to ask him to pray, and I did. But only to be poured with hot water again, Shattered Dream -- I want to help you, do you want to help me, do you want to help yourself? Sigh, he just refused to see the LIGHT, refuse to understand, refuse to know. Next moment, I hold his hand, I prayed silently in my heart, just like I had used before, always like that, its me, I am who I am.

At 633 am, I woke up, cannot sleep anymore, my mind was 'motivated' to wake up. I walked to the toilet, then to the window. This morning, there are no sun. Same timing like yesterday, but totally different weather. The Sun was not out yet. The clouds looked different. My songs of inspiration was 出路. I watched the sky, marvelled and hear the birds, but could not see any birds, but hear lots of birds. I stood at the window, observe the beauty of the sky. Slowly I discovered more things, more and more meaningful beauty of the world of creation.

No sun today, but I discovered the most peculiar sight. I saw a Star, a shiny little star among clear sky of clouds and the sun not appeared yet. The clouds in straight line form, like the smudging of water colour on both the top left and right of the sky. Beautiful sight. Just as I saw the star, an aeroplane flew by on the left. Then birds flew here and there, big and small all began to fly.

I walked to the living room, watch the sky for a while, no sun that side. Next, I heard the children's alarm. I wanted to hear what tune it was, but this day, Ricsson was fast to off the alarm. I walked to the room, opened the door, surprised to see the two little kids opened the door too. All awoke, all walked to my room.

I continued with the sky watch. Later Clara walked to me, I told her there was a star there. She said,"where got?" Then I said,"There... lei..." (pointing to the star). She said,"Yes, I saw, then cannot see again, very blur."

I captured lots of photographs of the beautiful sight. Until now, birds are still singing. I see the sun and I captured the sun, as it slowly appeared. Each time, the sun changes, I see something. The Sun, the eyeball, the cloud, the eyelid, WOW, luckily I took photographs -- a picture is worth a thousand words.


My favourite shirt, now I SEE, the place is at St Joseph Church, the Holy Ground

Destiny, it is all destiny. The sighting of aeroplane, the star, the black bird flying in the sky, all happen at exactly 7am, where my digital clock alarm rang, my handphone alarm rang too. Beautiful sight, magnificent and awe inspiring. The birds flying towards me, away from me, flying in all directions, various colours, various size. Swift, sparrows, many many, brown wings, yellow, black, wow its too many!

All this beautiful scenes are the answers to my life, the giver of my life, the creator of this world, and my time to pay back to my parents, what I told Jesus/God, on that Saturday, panting and rushing to the church, the same day Lim Chan was getting married...

Just as I was writing till here, Richard said,"Today is April's Fool, a good start to write my blog." That remind me. You see, that is the wonder of God. God works by sending messenger like that. And today 1st April, I am the greatest Fool in this world, that act like a clown in my life, a joker I played, a joker I am, Bingo I sing.